In the spirit of trying new things, today I am leaving on an 8 week trip, some of it solo and some of it with friends, and some of it with family. But I have never been away for that long at a time. I am nervous and excited all at the same time.
I have left the return date open…I have not booked my flight home yet as if I start wishing to be home, I want to be able to book the flight and come home. Besides this possible homesickness, there is a long list of things about this trip that pull at my feelings. I wrote on another blog post http://www.kellymacdonald.org/the-freedom-to-travel/ about my push and pull around the reality of travel.
After several longer trips this year, I am vaguely familiar with the angst that I experience before I travel. Saying goodbye is really hard and leaving my loved ones behind is hard. And then I get to the airport and I start to look forward into the future and I can see the adventure that I have ahead of me. No more conflicting feelings, just the excitement for what is ahead.
The angst passes and the adventure begins.
“You can’t discover new oceans unless you have the courage to leave the shore.”
That is me…every time that I go in a new direction. I hold on to what is most comfortable and easy. I resist new experiences despite my desire for them.
But my sense of adventure overtakes that need for safety and I let go. So I can experience all the things that this wonderful life has to offer. And after, I can always return to my safe place.
When I jump into the abyss and take the adventure, I return a changed person for having experienced that adventure.
Altered inside by the things that I see and do and the people I meet.
I return more confident of my own ability to thrive in new environments.
More able to handle whatever life sends my way.
And more in touch with the world as one world with many wonderful people who are just trying to do their thing.
Having a safe place is a beautiful thing, but leaving it so you can touch the stars is also beautiful.
So sometimes putting a label on the angst is all that is needed to dissipate it.
A label that describes it and puts it into a manageable package.
So there is nothing easy about taking the adventure. But it is worth it.
I am in England tonight and it is a beautiful evening and my story has begun.
What might you be missing out on by staying in your safe place?