But in a good way.
Because now I make sure that anything that uses my time, is something that I want to do.
And I still have the sense of having jumped off a cliff.
And I am still in free fall but it feels okay.
I can truly say that I feel okay about not knowing what comes next.
I do know that I like to accomplish things in my day and that when I don’t the day feels oddly wasted.
But the things that I accomplish now are things that I love to do.
I am freelancing now. I write other people’s blogs for them and it is surprisingly lucrative.
I am writing a book for an company in California and I love the material, so the time I spend writing blurs past me.
The scariest part of leaving my job was the time leading up to it. And now it is not scary.
And the health issues that were, in retrospect stress related, are going and gone.
I am working out again with passion and excitement instead of obligation.
I have a constant sense of contentment that hums in the background of everything I do.
I have never felt like this before at least not in the recent past.
I want to feel like this always now. Now that I know what it feels like, I will strive to return to this state whenever life steers me away. Because it is a good place to be.